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I LOVE YOU, SERIOUSLY.
Seriously, i do love you, i do like you, i do want to meet you, i do really adore you. AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. until every breathe i take, i only think about you. i just can't stop to think about you, dream about you every second, if i get the chance. i really want to meet you even right now.
aku suka kau, sayang kau, cinta kau.... sejak dari kecil aku rasa benda yang sama. aku pernah sayang, suka, and sampai sekarang would i say aku cinta hang. selain aku cinta Allah SWT dan Rasulullah SAW, serta my family, kau tergolong sekali. aku pernah benci kau, benci sangat, benci gila-gila. orang kata, kalau benci seseorang, jangan benci sampai nak mampus, nanti boleh jatuh hati. but i did. i used to hate you once, but finally, i am powerfully love you. kau sangat baik dengan aku dulu. pernah time birthday aku, hang lah orang terakhir yang wish kat aku. satu jam setengah jugak kita on the phone that time. i was really appreciate your effort of that time. you told me everything even berkaitan dengan ex girlfriend hang. i was just holding on. bila hang cakap pasal gf hang, aku tahan. cemburu tu almost thousand times. but i kept holding on. and hang cerita kat aku yang hang broke up dengan dia. aku encouraged hang to get back with her, even my tears just wanted to drop at the time, i endured it. aku buat macam tu sebab aku tau, hang suka sayang dia sangat. aku just nak tengok hang bahagia disamping orang yang hang sayang. tapi alangkah bahagia kalau orang itu adalah aku. you have admitted that you knew i was in love with you, but you couldn't accept because there's a reason. i just don't know why, perhaps because we are related as a sibling and cousin as well. but, i didn't care all of that. it's all about my heart, feeling and thought. i just couldn't hold it again.
you were very kind to me .. you were always text me, called me. i really wanted that happened again. you told me that you wouldn't have any gf again. i was glad if you say so. i just kept my heart to be patient, i told myself maybe there would have miracle between us. besides i prayed so hard and even ask if there's chance upon us, then let it happened. i just love to be closed with him.
and finally, aku terjumpa tweet hang dengan seorang perempuan. you two looked too closed. i wondered what were your state with her. aku nak tau sangat . aku hanya consider both of you are being as friend.
but, i just got a news from my sister, mengatakan yang hang bawa seorang perempuan berjumpa dengan parents hang. aku terasa nak rebah. tapi aku kawal riak muka aku dan aku pura-pura eager nak tahu sebab aku kena buat macam tu. untuk menahan rasa sedih di hati. my sister told macam mana muka dia, and ternyata, that girl.................. i have known it. i opened your instagram, and i saw you have tagged someone on your picture. it was her again. there was no doubt between both of you. you guys have something. even when your family visit you at your university, she comes to see your family as well,. what is the relationship between both of you.
i have kept this feeling almost 6 years without you know. but i acknowledge that you were. my bestfriends told me to move on. but for me its so hard to move on, because you are my first love. how can i forget about first love? HOW ???!!! it is very hard than i thought. i have tried a lot of ways and there's no way i could forget about you. it was too suffer for me. i just want you to be my first and last love, but there's no chance. you just can be my first love, but it too far to be my last love, because i have to move on. i need to move on.
after this i wish that i will not going to see you again. i just don't want the feeling comes back when i meet you. just please be gone from my life. even i have loved you for a long time ago, i just want you to know that i very love you.. i don't want to be separated with you, but i have too. i need tosee you, but i force to not being like that. it's all for my sake for you. i sacrifice my love for you just to see you happy with someone that deserve to stay in your heart . even i didn't have the chance and opportunity to stay longer in heart, i just want you to know, that i have loved you for a long time ago. and i will be gone in your sight ...... i will gone. i promise. may Allah bless both of us with happiness . amin.
sincerely,
Mrs Brooke.
Thanks For Reading. You Are Awesome
perghh, it has been sooooooooooo long i haven't update my cutie pie. Well, i am a University's student. Busy is my close friend, though. But suddenly, i want to update my blog. What up? what happened to me until i decided to write something in my personal diary. Eyyy, there must be something strange happened, aight? Well, lets discover it.
It has a lot of story that i wanted to disclose. It's about my University's life as well, up and down friend's matters, full with assignments, and at last the curse of FINAL EXAM that i just finished it about 4days ago. phewsss... it was so scary and wrecking my nerves like crazy. But, Alhamdulillah, i went through it smoothly and i leave it to Allah. =)
Living as a student is kinda tough things to do. We cant hope for any lecture to teach us hardly or strictly. We have to find and seek them to ask anything about what we couldn't understand. But, thank to Allah cuz have given me the best ever lecturers that teach and pointed what is right and wrong. I just got my "spooky" lecturer. Allah, at first, i thought she was a kind, soft and feminine. Based on her voices in phone calll, her soft and sweet voices came in the phone. i was automatically believing that she was a lady with a feminine characters while my friend were thinking the same way with me.
When we entered the class, which was HER class, we stood dumbfounded. Our mouth locked like a prisoner got his handcuff on his hand. Her charismatic was totally made us shocked like bloody crazy. Nobody couldn't speak well at her class.It was silent just like at graveyard. Mannnn, it was so scary though. But finally, we realised that she is the best lecturer ever. She gave me a message to send to all my colleagues to do the best on final exam. I finally realised that she was not too fierce and strict. She also has humanity in herself, right? hahahaha..
I think that all for this night. I gotta have to wake very early for tomorrow morning. Just because i did it far once at the time, i have to repeat it until it becomes my daily routine. HIKHIKHIKHIK.
Till then, thanks for reading for those who read my dusty and misty blog. Goodbye.
Thanks For Reading. You Are Awesome
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